Dear santa

Dear santa 

This year I've been a naughty boy and hurt loads of womens feelings,  but it's only cos a future with them I couldn't help but not believe in, she has to be the perfect woman who makes my heart keep beating, one who I'll change my ways for so I know she'll never be leaving

I'm looking for a lady with an elegant touch, one who's kinda classy but as filthy as a slut, I know it's quite alot but I never ask for much just make sure that her pussy is very neatly cut

I don't want no bitch who's labia hangs low, or one whos minge dribbles like the dog Beethoven we all know, her feet have to be pretty it's not about dinosaur toes, full on respect for herself, not a sausage smoking hoe

I want her to be independent and not a  benefit cheat, I don't want no little hood rat who's sat on nearly every mans meat, a girl who keeps her shoes on not leaving a club in her bare feet, one who doesn't piss in the gutter in the middle of the street 

I'd like my lady to have her real hair no extensions or horse hair weave, her fake tan levels to be under control and not ruining my satin sheets, she's not allowed to be on twitter posting boobie wednesday picture tweets, them parts of her body are only allowed to be for only me

I'd like one who prefers to swallow cos she don't like cum inside her, plus it saves her wiping with my socks And becoming a baby breeder, I promise not to hurt her, become jealous or a feeder, I'll show her endless love and prove to her I'm a keeper!

Thank you big man! 

Addiction

I wake up with voices screaming at me, my body's in shock shaking uncontrollably, I'm in a dark place no support from my family, Im chasing pavements on route to find my destiny

My dirty fingernails are scraping my pockets lining, I got no money on me I feel like fucking crying, who am I gonna hurt next with my stealing and my lying, but I gotta get a fix my body feels like it's dying

This addictions took my life I feel like my soul is decomposed, I'm always running from my problems hiding behind a heavy dose, will I ever fully recover thats one thing I'll never know, all I want is to be loved again by the people my heart holds close

I'm off out on my travels I need to see what I can find, I gotta make some money even if it means to rob it from the blind, I'm getting anxious now starting to go crazy in my mind, I need to feed these demons that are taking over me inside

When i take my magic medicine i feel so high I'm paralysed, numb to the destruction That's  swallowed up my pride, oblivious to the world no more feeling I'm deprived, it's just another day of craving and going cold turkey I've survived

A comedown is the darkest place in this grim underworld I see, back to fighting for survival now this sickness has got the best of me, I'm kicking puddles under a bridge need to make myself a dry place to sleep, as the public walk on by looking down on the scum that fills their streets

Behind alot of addictions there's a decent human being, who has sadly turned to drugs to deal with the pain that they was feeling, as society most like to judge as drugs they don't believe in, but then that life as it's a cruel that we live in!!

For my nan which I never read out.

Will you be the blades of grass we feel beneath our feet, or the pink and white silk blossom that grows upon our trees, will you be the early morning sun that likes to shine on me, or the cooling refreshing air we like to call a breeze, 

will you be the melody the birds sing in the spring, or the sunset upon our skies as the evenings draw on in, will you be the raindrops that the fluffy clouds bring, or the colours in the  rainbows one of natures finest things, 

will you be my shadow that follows me on the ground, or the glowing of the moon the twinkling stars surround, will your spirit be around us without making a sound, looking down on us smiling and listening right now, 

i know you will be in all our hearts and remembered for a lifetime, your our nan we are all so proud of and with great pride I can say your mine, to me you will be an angel high up in the sky, leaving white trails in the clouds as you spread your wings to fly!

Sitting here blood rushing my eyes burn into the wall, my hearts torn and deflated yet I tried to stand tall, been on the edge of breaking point since I was taking for a fool, by a woman who i cherished and gave her my all

I hear Her car pull up outside I'm emotionally distraught, veins are lifting out my skin I'm thinking crazy thoughts, this marriage break up won't be done on paper and settled in the courts, it will be my hands around her throat that settles our divorce

She walks in with a smile and gently shuts the door, She's playing her game well which makes me think Im just insecure, but now I have seen with my own eyes she's just a dirty whore, this bitch is gonna feel my pain thats one thing for sure

I grabbed her by the hair, pulling hard she starts screaming, get off me you freak what the fuck are you doing, My hairs coming out at the roots its ripping and hurting, I shout I'm gonna make you pay for all of your cheating

I pull her into the kitchen where the flourescent lights bright, I tie her up to a chair I see the fear in her eyes, I smash up dirty plates piled up high on the side, I throw tea mugs at the wall  shattered porcelain flys

I grit my teeth hard I shout and I scream, 12 years we have been together since the age of sixteen, you built my world into what can only be decribed as a dream, opening my heart to a world of love I couldn't believe,

I've watched you for days meeting a man who You look content with, he puts his hand on your face to kiss you  exactly the same way that I did,  he puts his arm around your waist  to show the whole world that your his, no thoughts for my pain or any care for my tears

I got that choking feeling holding back the tears I tried,
I had to stay strong holding it all in for my pride, but I'm a man whos only human I broke down and I cried, while smelling your scent off your pillow telling myself your no longer my bride

I rip off my shirt to reveal the scars on my arms, the only way to deal with the pain was a knife to self harm, I cut myself deep where the blood was still warm, just sit there and bleed till the adrenalines calm

She's sobbing from the heart and lifts her head  to look at me, she says she became my chore not the wife she was meant to be, she just wanted to be appreciated by the man that made her see, she was worth more than anything in the world and not the shit on our streets

I can't take the truth I smack her face till she bleeds
She Wriggles free from the chair and launches  at me, hits her head of the door frame goes all limp At the knees, lands on the floor with a force, unconscious unable to breathe


yellow liquid leaks from her ears she's in a state of trauma, how did this escalate in to this heartbreaking  devastating drama, I promised her all them years ago that I'd never hurt her, now I have taken away her happy ever after

I switch on the gas on the cooker and swallow 2 packets of pills, I cannot go on living with the guilt and pain that I feel, My soul is destroyed unable to heal, im a monster in her eyes I have to accept that it's real

I make her look comfortable that's the best I can do, hold on to her hand as my breathing stops too,  whisper in her ear that I'm sorry and My love for you was so true , The last beat of my heart I saved it for you !

Matthews request

As I lay in this bed with a pissy patch beneath me, dribbling like a cunt and no one wants to feed me, bed sores seepin with puss and chaffage round my ring piece, I'm waiting on the angels to come and realease me

My mums Concoction of medicines mixed up by my bedside, I'm gonna down it like a jäger while I remember the goodtimes, I'm felling hot and sweaty like a whitey when u get high, can't fight it anymore as my eyes slowly shut tight, 

Feel my heart pumping fast it's like it's popping out my chest, my hands grab on tight to the metal supports around the bed,  my mums shaking hand wipes my mouth and sweat away from my head, she crying uncontrollably screaming out I've killed him hes dead..

Benefits

Some girls on benefits say they got a rough cut living, 3 baby's fathers and not a pot to piss in, yet out every weekend dancing and drinking, smoking 20 fags a day and too depressed to be working

They tell their friends they have been brought to their knees, raising 3 kids alone has been so hard for me, yet her Facebook pictures make that hard to believe, standin in a club with champagne while her kids are home alone asleep

These are the type of girls you find on Jeremy Kyle, so proud to be there and step on stage with a smile,   Can't wait to tell the nation she expecting a 4th child, so her benefits go up meaning more nights out on the tiles

It's so nice to see what we pay tax for, a baby breeding machine throwing shapes on the dancefloor, looking down at the world from her free flat on the top floor, of her towerblock dreams supplied by our governments councils

A REAL lady

A real lady wants some happiness followed by love along the way, to feel wanted and appreciated with a morning text everyday, 

She dosent want to be a burden or feel just like a chore, she want to pass the stage of being mans fuck buddy whore, 

She won't accept a man who 1st prioritys are not her, or a man who makes her suspicious when random acts occur

She likes a bit of drama and  a man to argue back, so you can kiss and make up again and destroy her in the sack

Upon concieving a baby she wants you to stand your ground, be affectionate and amazing, not shagging every slag that's around

Baby scan pictures will not be uploaded to social networking sites, nor will she post hateful comments about you after a big domestic fight

Benefit cheating is not an option so a hard working man it is to be, she will also be independent, not a housewife hooked on daytime t.v

She will put on a bit of weight every lady in a relationship does, so to help her not feel paro show her that extra bit of love

Don't hurt or break this lady or she will be a cunt, women are the most powerful creature on the plantet and end up with everything they fucking want!!

Cheating haha

When a woman loves she means the real deal, her hearts on the line for what her mans made her feel, the butterflies still flutter with his romantic skills, his proudness he shows her for what she makes him feel, 

So why do we cheat when we got it made, turn a relationship round and into a game, going out every weekend trying to get laid, while our woman's at home singing our praise, 

Us men like attention and a woman's we like best, it's a confidence boost and a reality check, it put us on a high to lay a girl we just met, we see it like football putting the ball in the net,

We just need to make sure that we still got game, that our charm is alight a burning flame, in the back of our mind it hurts in a way, knowing if our woman found out it would cause her pain

Testosterone in us makes us take the chances, takes over our brain in women's advances, not thinking in split seconds and just likes to dive in, not thinking that it's at home where our heart is

The guilt eats away at us and we know we done wrong, but it helps us men keep our relationship still strong, it makes us make effort as we go along, which helps make our woman believe she is the one