Addiction

I wake up with voices screaming at me, my body's in shock shaking uncontrollably, I'm in a dark place no support from my family, Im chasing pavements on route to find my destiny

My dirty fingernails are scraping my pockets lining, I got no money on me I feel like fucking crying, who am I gonna hurt next with my stealing and my lying, but I gotta get a fix my body feels like it's dying

This addictions took my life I feel like my soul is decomposed, I'm always running from my problems hiding behind a heavy dose, will I ever fully recover thats one thing I'll never know, all I want is to be loved again by the people my heart holds close

I'm off out on my travels I need to see what I can find, I gotta make some money even if it means to rob it from the blind, I'm getting anxious now starting to go crazy in my mind, I need to feed these demons that are taking over me inside

When i take my magic medicine i feel so high I'm paralysed, numb to the destruction That's  swallowed up my pride, oblivious to the world no more feeling I'm deprived, it's just another day of craving and going cold turkey I've survived

A comedown is the darkest place in this grim underworld I see, back to fighting for survival now this sickness has got the best of me, I'm kicking puddles under a bridge need to make myself a dry place to sleep, as the public walk on by looking down on the scum that fills their streets

Behind alot of addictions there's a decent human being, who has sadly turned to drugs to deal with the pain that they was feeling, as society most like to judge as drugs they don't believe in, but then that life as it's a cruel that we live in!!

For my nan which I never read out.

Will you be the blades of grass we feel beneath our feet, or the pink and white silk blossom that grows upon our trees, will you be the early morning sun that likes to shine on me, or the cooling refreshing air we like to call a breeze, 

will you be the melody the birds sing in the spring, or the sunset upon our skies as the evenings draw on in, will you be the raindrops that the fluffy clouds bring, or the colours in the  rainbows one of natures finest things, 

will you be my shadow that follows me on the ground, or the glowing of the moon the twinkling stars surround, will your spirit be around us without making a sound, looking down on us smiling and listening right now, 

i know you will be in all our hearts and remembered for a lifetime, your our nan we are all so proud of and with great pride I can say your mine, to me you will be an angel high up in the sky, leaving white trails in the clouds as you spread your wings to fly!